I have my cat now.. His name is Bernie he is about 5 months old and a little tabby cat... I heart him... He does like to wake me up about 3:30 in the morning but it could be worse.. I just ignore him then he goes away...

Troy came home from Philly last night... Robbie and him are going to Vegas and New Orleans when he turns 21... They were watching Celebrity Poker last night and Robbie told Troy that he wanted to play cards.. So Troy and him decided that when Robbie turns 21 they are going to Vegas...

In a week it will be one year since my mom passed. Hard to beleive that a whole year has passed but it did... Wow... this time last year I was on the phone with her talking to her telling her how things were going out here... 5 days later she died.. It is so unreal almost... I still wish I could pick up the phone and call her and hear her voice....

I really miss her

Only 2 more days and I get my kitty...

I am getting my cat on Friday... and not too mention but we are going to be getting a house at the end of august early september... It is basically just right around the corner from our house right now... It is a 2 story house 3 bedrooms, fireplace, very very nice kitchen, office and a unfinished basement... I really really love this house... Our landlord isn't even going to show this house to anyone else!!!! It's ours... It has been since 1999 for me to be in a real house... Troy hasn't lived in a "real" house since 1992... So this is a good thing... The yard is all right... There really isn't that much to it but at least we have grass!!!! There is a small area also that has a garden... Troy and I even offered if they needed any help we would be happy to help them out to get the house fixed up... I will pull weeds... I will do anything they need me to do!!!! The rent is actually not that bad... about 200 morea month but well... that is when we just got to not spend as much.... So my cat his name is Taz... he is a tiger cat... I can't wait to bring him home!!!!! I know Troy is going to like him just as much as I do... Robbie has not a clue yet... well anywhos

Later days!!!!

So I was talking to Troy and kinda whining that I wanted a cat... Guess what he agreed... I was surprised.. So I took a nice drive into Boulder to check out the human society... they want $95-145 to adopt a kitten or a cat... No thank you... I went to PetSmart to see about a there adoption center.. I saw a kitten there that I just fell in love with her name was Darcy.. I have a feeling that I won't get her.. Oh well... So I came home and started looking on line and I called one lady who rescues cats... I may have to check her out... There are a few others that I can call about also...

What makes me want to get a cat.. I don't know I just really want one... I want to look at so many cats and just test them all out then pick out the one that would be the most enjoyable to have... I used to never really like cats but they are growing on me... We shall see...

Of course I still have to check it out with my landlord... but I am hoping that she will let us.. We shall see....

Later days....

So where was I with the week of fun I believe we ended with Monday...


OK Tuesday.... Megan, Kathy and I went horseback riding along with my friend Cindy's daughter Autumn... We went on an hour ride through a trail... I was surprised about the trail... it was pretty hard to do... Of course I was on one of the slower horses... Hey it’s been since 1997 since I have been on a horse... But we had fun... It just felt good to be out and about with my little sister... After the horseback ride we headed back home we stopped at Taco Bell in Longmont that was a trip... Two 16 year olds, one 13 year old and me... It was great times.... I have to smile about our experience... It brings a smile to my face even now.....

In the meantime my husband is about to start the pulled pork on the grill... I love the pulled pork it is great...

So we get home and we head out to Boulder to get Kathy’s nose pierced... so there we were on College Hill in Boulder at the piercing place... She gets her nose done and I have to say it looks cool on her... I mention to my dad who is with us... "The one person back home in Toledo that will have the most problem with it is Mary (my older sister)" Dads response is "who cares it is Kathy’s body she can do what she wants" GO DAD!!!! After that we go next door to this Old Tibet store where Kathy finds this beautiful dress and Megan finds this really awesome long skirt... Dad buys me a necklace (now I just have to find a chain that is longer) and he buys Kathy these really pretty earrings...

After that experience we head for Walgreen’s to get the pictures he dropped off for one hour photo and we go to King Soopers to pick up some other stuff for dinner and some odds and ends. After the trip to the grocery store we go and pick up Robbie from daycare... Then we head home and eat... Again my dad is impressed by Troy's cooking... He asks me do you eat this well every night... I say yes dad I do....

Tuesday night finds Kathy, Megan and I at Blockbusters.... One thing about Blockbusters is this... WAY WAY OVER PRICED..... Something about renting a movie for 5.00 for a week is dumb..... But of course we do anyways... We rent Office Space and The Shining... Comedy and Horror... So we get home that night and watch movies... pretty nice.... Sleep time for me was 11:00 sleep time for girls I don't know......

Wednesday the last day... We really didn't do much at all. I took the girls with me to get my pay check stub (direct deposit is cool) and took them to the mall... We have this pretty awesome mall called Flatirons... Nice.... we had a quick bite to eat then went and played with the dogs at Pedigree Shop... I saw this beautiful Saint Bernard and a beautiful Husky... I want them... they are just too cute!!!! I also take them to Build a Bear that was really fun... So we leave the mall and head home... The girls and I decided to head up to the Boulder Falls and we watched people go tubing down the Canyon River... Pretty cool... we head home after awhile... We eat dinner and then we decided to go to Hobby Lobby so dad can find a feather for THE PIMP hat... My dad comes across this beautiful shadow box for Troy... He says to me don't worry about the price this is the one for Troy... (I was in shock... see my dad when I was younger would have never done that... or at least I don't believe so) So he buys him this very expensive gift looks at me and says if there is anything that strikes your fancy Rose pick it up... I am in shock and can't bring myself to do that... He says to me also if there is anything that you really like please call me and let me know.... I want to buy you something.... Of course again I am in complete shock and just kind of say.... ummm well I will let you know if there is something at some other time... So then we head home and the girls want me to teach them how to make dream catchers so I do... Kathy's comes out beautiful. Megan a mess... so Kathy I believe took it home with her to make it for her. We then go to bed... 12:00...

Thursday morning I wake up around 6:45... Get the girls up get Robbie up Take a shower head out the door with them... Take Robbie to daycare and get Dad, Kathy and Megan to the airport to head home to Toledo.... I walk through with them to check their bags and head to security... where I say good bye... I cry... I miss them... I go to the car look around and sit there for a moment and think about the week... I had fun... LOTS OF FUN!!!

I head home... the van is quiet.... I look back at this week and think wow... I really did have a great time... I realize that I feel kind of empty... Before I know it I am home... I open the door to quiet... I sit down and look around the room... No more messes to clean up, I slowly put away the air mattress... the blankets... the pillows... A sense of calm goes through my body... and I sit again.... Remembering...

The smiles

The laughs

The tears

The memories I will have forever

Later Days

This past week was one of the best weeks of my life. My dad, Kathy and her best friend Megan were here this week. They came in last friday at night... Unaware of the spectacular sight they were going to see the next morning considering there flight didn't get in until 8:40 and by the time we got the luggage it was pitch black outside.

I got them home went and got them somthing to eat talked to Kathy and Megan until about 2:00 a.m. and then went to sleep. I tell you two 16 year olds are a trip and a half. I had an awesome time with them. They made me realize that even with being in my mid twentys I can still have some fun. But back to the week o fun.

I wake up at around 7:30 a. m. so does Robbie. I realize oh I haven't went to the grocery store. So the girls wake up and Robbie and I take them with us to the store.. They pick out what they want to eat for the week. Surprising but I didn't really spend all that much. Head home the girls eat some breakfast.

At around 10:30 dad finally get himself out of bed. At around 12:00 we head out to Artist Point and Nederland. My dad falls in love with Nederland. We stop there and pick up some ice cream. Dad and Troy find a t-shirt they both want... Me being the good daughter and wife buys them for the two of them. We head home and have some hamburgers and french fries. Dad finds out for the first time that his son-in-law has a knack for cooking.

So after dinner Kathy, Megan and I head out to Boulder. We end up at Pearl Street. See I love Pearl Street. I love the atmosphere down there... So even though it is late we go. They love it just like I thought they would... We head home about 11:00... Get to sleep about 1:00....

Sunday morning.... We wake up eat breakfast... head to Rocky Mountain National Park. Were we see some great sights... We saw Elk and long horned Sheep... My dad is in love.... and I mean in LOVE... we head back down towards Estes Park were Troy takes the girls on this tramway up the mountain... THEY LOVED IT!!! In the meantime dad and I stay down by the gift shop were dad finds himself a few odds and ends of things and the best thing of all A PIMP HAT... Kathy of course is very much embarrased... So we head home from there were my dad starts acting like well dad... this embarasses my little sister who is just fumed... Megan and I head to Sonic to get dinner for that night. We end up at home with Kathy pissed off at me we have our little heart to heart and things seem fine we end up until 3:00 that night.

Monday morning I wake up take Robbie to the Cindys house, Troy and dad head back up to Rocky Mountain while the girls and I stay around town... We end up going to lunch at Applebees, go pick up Robbie and wait for Dad and Troy to get home. They get home around 6:45... Guess what they saw and as my dad says He can go home happy.... HE SAW A BEAR!!!!! A black bear he got a good shot of it...

So we have dinner of Tuna and Noodles which I made and my dad loved... I end up taking the girls back down to Pearl Street where we shop and have some more fun... I end up buying Kathy these very beutiful flip flops... They were black and I beleive they had butterflys on them... She was hesistant in buying them but I ended up doing it for her... we go home after that and go to sleep its 12:00... to be continued....