It is the end of another year... 2004 was actually pretty good.. With the exception of a few things... Robbie turned 3 Troy turned 28 I turned 26.... I realized that I don't need my family as much as I thought I did with the exception of my dad, I will always need him in my life. I learned how to finally defend myself against my sister by finally telling her that she needed to grow up and move on with her life and stop acting like a bitch... Now we aren't talking but it was well worth it... I only wish that she would come to some sort of realization that she can't have her cake and eat it too... I love her but she needs to start thinking about her life a bit better....

I also realized that your younger siblings do grow up that can't stay small forever... Danny (the baby boy of the family) graduated from high school and is now training to be a MP in the marine corp, Tommy is married with 3 step daughters not too mention his son Jordon... He is still in the marines but will be getting out come July. David is somewhere in Iraq but can't seem to tell us where he is or when he is coming home he was supposed to get out in July also but who knows now...

and my baby sister... .Kathy.... she will be 17 next month (january 23) a junior in high school.. Graduating in May of 2006.... She came out to stay with me for a week this past July... It was great having her here... I realized that I really missed her though... Her and I have this very special relationship even though we are 10 years apart she is probaly one of my very dearest friends... She is driving now with her own car and has a job... I remember her when she was still in her crib and she would throw her toys at me to wake me in the morning... I only wish I was closer to home for her because even though she won't admit it she still needs her big sister around...

Another thing I started to realize a few months ago was that I was very unhappy with my job so I got a new one. I actually have a job that I am happy to go to every day. I don't wake up feeling like omg I have to go back... I feel relaxed up lifted care free... and life is good again...

so in just a few more hours 2005 will finally be here... I wish everyone a very VERY Safe and Happy New Year!!!!!

Later Days

Only a few more weeks and Christmas will be upon us.. Kinda crazy if you ask me... Don't get me wrong I love Christmas but not as much as some people... Christmas for me is just being with my family... Being surrounded by the ones I love and who love me... I don't care about presents because to me it should be about Family and being together.. Not about the expensive gifts that people give to one another... My husband doens't beleive me that I really don't want anything for Christmas but phooy on him... I honestly can say that presents are well great and all but why should there be that one time of the year that you spend so much money on gifts you go bankrupt when you do that any other time of the year... I know I am making no sense at all about this but I just feel that way... I'm anything but a scrooge I like to spend money on my family for gosh sakes the presents so far I have bought for Robbie have cost me a little bit of a bundle... not to mention the gifts my husband will receive this year... My in-laws will get a special treat this year... and well for myself I am completly content on just being with them on Christmas morning... watching my son open presents with the gleam of wonder in his eye... the excitement of opening one present after another... he should have a good one this year... AT least I hope so....

My in-laws will be out here this year... I can't wait to see my father in law I haven't seen him in wow 2 years... Seems crazy but yes it has been that long ago... Ed is one word AMAZING!! I love the man... He is just this wonderful guy who is just well great... Robbie is getting excited to see his grandpa ED!!!

Well troy is off in Sacramento this week and well it is getting late so I am off to bed... my new job is going well...

later days